I think the underlying concept of this post has been brewing in my mind for quite some time now, and maybe I’ve said similar things in the past. But more recently I feel that it’s come to a head.
I think I’ve been so preoccupied with my own enjoyment of the world that it has sort of distracted me from my goals.
Now, perhaps more than ever, I want to pursue grand goals and work tirelessly to achieve them. Even minor accomplishments feel more satisfying than ever, and meaningless entertainment or pleasure-seeking seems to leave me feeling more dissatisfied than ever.
Rather than lament why that is, I think it’s easier and more effective to just go with it. To start moving away from those things and, instead, really dive headfirst into accomplishing my numerous goals.
This doesn’t mean I can’t ever enjoy myself, but it does mean establishing what it will take to achieve my goals and sticking to those things.
It probably does mean avoiding some activities in favor of others. For example, I have found that nature-based activities and things that are more physically-active in general are far more rewarding than, say, just going out and drinking.
Plus they have the added benefit of being healthy and making me feel better long-term, vs. drinking which is the exact opposite.
I sort of feel like I’ve been so preoccupied with some internal things and other parts of my life in general that I’ve lost focus on my goals for quite a while now.
In the last year, specifically, I feel like I was too distracted to actually accomplish anything beyond that.
I knew that at some point I’d start feeling like I am now, and that time has come a little earlier than expected.
And I see it as a very good thing. It requires confidence, initiative, and a positive outlook to really feel motivated and disciplined enough to have this kind of focus. And those things were conspicuously absent to varying degrees for the last year.
I’m not sure if I will immediately start to turn things around but at this point I’m feeling like that should really be where my focus is.